Just a few more days until our next appointment with our Orthopaedic Specialist... Ben's appointment is on Friday. After our last PT visit I started feeling pretty angry! We didn't find out anything new... everything that is happening, we have known about for months. So why am I so agitated?
Everything is just starting to get very real. I am frustrated because there is limited information on Blounts; because I still haven't found anyone else that has been affected... because Ben will never have "perfect" legs... I could go on and on. Then, I start feeling guilty for feeling pissed off. "I should be grateful that Ben and his sister's are healthy otherwise".."Should be grateful that at least this isn't life threatening"... I know we are lucky; I just don't like that the process of Blounts is SO slow going; and that I don't know what to expect. I think the thing that bothers me the most is that Ben has "special needs"... he is categorized now. Not that there is anything wrong with children that have special needs. I almost feel like if he had a learning disability, or something else that wasn't so obvious, I would deal with it better. Knowing that the new braces he is going to get are going to be so much more noticeable... And now that Winter is here; all I can think about is Spring and Summer; when Ben will be running and playing outside; wearing shorts, kicking balls and building sand castles... all with big clunky braces?
Well, now that I got it out there, I'm sure I'll start to feel better. Most likely after Friday we will have a plan; and that will make me feel more certain on what lies ahead.
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